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A Christmas to Remember
It was finally Christmas my sister whispered in my ear leading me by hand behind her to
Wake up mama! The house smelled amazing as we inhaled aromas of coconut and sweet potato pie, ham and it’s glaze, turkey and gravy, potato salad, rolls
And so much more !!!! Mama
Opened the blinds her normal routine as
Us three gathered around our Christmas tree to share and cheer as we opened our gifts! Mom sat back watching us both with glee in her eyes !!!! We were very surprised as Santa who should’ve been called Mrs
clause made a way to purchase
All the impossibilities extended from our Christmas List and all it could hold. Mrs . Clause expressed
Through yawns she was tired after helping retrieve all the gift wrapping paper and
Boxes that she asked us to
Fold! She then lit the fire
Place and we cuddled in the recliner
Happier than ever as We watched the snow
Fall! Fighting sleep we
Patiently awaited a visit from Dad worried his Cadillac 95 couldn’t pull
The hill covered with snow, ice and
Sleet !!! We heard not longer after his engine burning we threw on gloves and our robes and the socks and then our snow boots just sister and I as mama watched from the door! Daddy was stuck !!! As we
Approached his car fumes of black
Smoke blew everywhere! Mama
…. Yelled my name and insisted that I stand back as his tires were screeching and squalling such a terrible and annoying cry. A few more pumps steadily on the gas and he was no longer stuck !!! He came into the warm house and sat with me and my sister on his lap! He handed us our gifts and expressed that it was time he get!
This made me so sad as I wanted us to forget the harsh reality that makes all kids sick. It was not enough time spent just the four of us all on this Christmas and snowy day. He kissed my head and my sister then ran she said his mustache tickles
Her but just like Mom's red lipstick kisses I found his forehead kisses soothing to my soul !!! I held his hand to
The door yet fighting back tears the tears mom And dad both hated to see me shed. He thanked mom for the coconut pie she made with care especially for him !! And I watched him glide to the bottom of the street feeling a blade of coldness sliver down my spine as I watched from up above the gliders of the house the ice cycles sparkling and shining. This truly was a Christmas I never forget and all though the love was their my world still felt alone as I knew we would all 4 never be together again on yet ThIs Christmas to remember unless we were over the phone! Home dad said he was going I was unsure why me, mom, and sister couldn’t go! Yes it hurt and it made me mad and then every Christmas I then remembered as the years tarried on it would never be the same! Who cared about the fame, I just wanted another Christmas to remember, another Christmas just us 4, like the Christmas songs the temptations sang on mamas cassette player on repeat !!! And now and then I reflect back on that Christmas to remember feeling those same emotions brutally cold keeping in mind although things have and will never be the same every Christmas together or apart I
Shall and will always remember
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Dear, John
He said I was full of it playing a movie full
Of fabrication in my mind! Delusional
He would say while I called his denial!! 6 months he studied me and learned me
Distinguished I was creative, smart and intelligent! Allowed me to trust him with my deep darkest secrets with long and extended phone conversations till the early
Morning I would say! He push me
to own my mistakes but could never
Account for his! In fact he hated I was
Smart enough to see right thru him
. A kiss on my left Ankle he did seal while I
Replaced it with a kiss on the inside of his arms trying to dare not yell. I admired
Him all things about him
Never thinking for once that Jon wasn’t true
A false prophet he had been to me
And I’m sure others too. To hide his
Secret ate me up especially when heartfelt occasions to me occurred and he was not true! It made me cold-hearted and blue while he thought it was a game and he emphasized that I too was a piece of
Meat and he was through! I couldn’t even soulfully talk to him without Jon yes
Jon thinking I wanted to be glued! Jon happened and it was real he touched my soul in more ways than one I was certain we
Would grow not together with her role
I wasn’t interested to do, but to
Lose a friend who grew
And knew so much about me only to
Flew! Conviction guilty he said he felt! Directed me to believe and
Not be deceived! That Jon yes Dear Jon your no longer are a friend of
Mines that I count few! But just as the dew
Rises early in the morning from
The grass ever so fast I found it in my heart to no longer write Dear, Jon but Goodbye Jon I can no
Longer
Do!!!!
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